beautevil

R.I.P. Max (1991- Dec. 31, 2005) I love you and miss you so much.

2006-01-03T22:06:38Z

R.I.P. Max (1991- Dec. 31, 2005)

Goodbye to the most wonderful soul and companion in the whole world...

You were my dearest one, my furry love and friend of mine, my baby, my soul, and my life. I miss you so much that I can't see anything anymore.

I remember how I held your warm and fuzzy body in my arms when you were a tiny puppy like it was just yesterday, and from then on I would hug and nuzzle my face into yours and whisper "I love you" playfully every night before I slept in hopes that one day you would finally understand. Now you were old as i held you as you were slowly dying...and I knew you did.

I would give and do anything in the world to once more hear the comfort of your footsteps around the house, your cute doggy noises, to have you steal my socks when you wanted to play, to lick the tears off my face, to see you attack the other person to defend me when they playfully hit me, to feel the way you understood me by my eyes and facial expression and the way you seemed almost human and knew things I never taught you. i miss your wise nature and diginity, everything...

...most of all though, I would give anything to nuzzle my face in yours and squeeze you just like that once more.

I feel such deep and utter sadness and emptiness that no words can ever be able to express.

Goodbye Max. I love you so much. I tried everything I could to save you...i tried so hard to hold on...i'm so sorry i couldn't save you, sweetie. i'm so sorry...

There will never ever be another one with a personality as unique and funny as yours. I'll never forget you.

beautevil @ 2005-03-04T10:18:00

2005-03-04T18:18:28Z

To a unique individual the bestest friend a gal could have:

* * *** HAPPY BIRTHDAY NGUYEN!!! *** * *

I'm lucky and blessed to have a friendship that is so unconditional. You've always been beside me, and I've always been so honored to have someone such as you to confide in me of your thoughts, wishes, and strife in your life. Why? Because you're unlike any other, and your personality and disposition demands such respect. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

beautevil @ 2005-03-01T09:03:00

2005-03-01T17:02:59Z

happy born-day to you!
happy born-day to you!
happy born-day dear Peter!
happy booooorn-day to you! hahah. ;-]

*** HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY WONDERFUL HONEY!!!! ***
\(^o^)/

i cherish u more than words can ever explain. thank you for just being so perfect, and for being born so i could have youu!!!

isle of ewe verimuh cha. X]

my life...

2004-08-10T19:58:35Z

My life...of everything that I've ever learned, witnessed, been through, remembered, held on to, loved, cherished, hated, regretted, and let go of...

this is my life.

with all my sorrows, loss, being wrong, victories, betrayals, love, miserable helplessness, and oh such unforgettable sacrifices and failures.

i want to thank everyone for these experiences... whether you have raised me up on the highest mountain and carried me freely above the world, or threw me and my trust and innocence upon the cold and jagged floor to be left behind.

THANK YOU.

though, once in awhile these things of the past that have been pushed to the farthest back of my mind..comes running back up to my face, slapping me...
...i'll cry, and i'll hurt, and i'll be frightened again.

but...

I am what I am today because of them
I know what I know because of them
I feel what I feel because of them
it gives me undeniable depth, it gives me strength, it gives me immeasurable passion
it gives me the understanding and wisdom that comes with pain, and also love
it lets me break the boundary of all superficiality

enough tears to fill an entire ocean
enough loss as empty as the the space in the sky

then there is love... =)

i have lived. i have learned.
good and bad, this is my life...

and it was all worth it.

beautevil @ 2004-07-13T11:48:00

2004-07-13T18:49:25Z

hey guys!
i'm at work right now (thank u Anthony! *hugs!). >=)
just letting u know i got a new cell number now. =) if u need to reach me call Mr. Mai and he'll give it to you. i hope everyone has a great day!

beautevil @ 2004-06-30T14:21:00

2004-06-30T21:22:06Z

Happy Boornday to you!
Happy Booornday to YOU!
Happy BOOOORNDAAAAAAAY DEAR TAMMY!
HAPPY BORNDAY TO YOUuuUu!!! ^_^

UCI VSA CULTURE NIGHT '04 TRAILER RELEASED!

2004-04-19T06:29:22Z

Watch the trailor to the upcoming play of
"THE DUMPLING EFFECT" which will be presented at the UCI Brent Event's Center on May 8th, 2004. Please come support us because we have worked so hard on it!!! it's gonna be fun and awesome!

UCI VSA CULTURE NIGHT '04 TRAILER RELEASED!
http://www.vsauci.com/

the song u guys hear during the trailor is a small sample of a whole song composed by Mr. Peter Nguyen and myself. kekeke!! XD
the words are in latin: "deus dimitto nostra peccatus" meaning "God forgive our sins" if you're wondering what language it is. =P

beautevil @ 2004-04-09T04:46:00

2004-04-09T11:56:15Z

sooo huuUuUungryYyY...

ah!!

2004-03-30T01:02:47Z

Hey guys,

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY AN!!! I'm so sorry that I can't make it to your birthday dinner. =((( I want to go so badly, but I can't because I have rehearsal tonight at 7pm. =( Oh cruelty is life!!! I hope all you guys have fun. =) I'll try to stop by afterwards if you guys are still hanging out..keep your cells by you now!!!

p.s. somebody give An a big pinch for me ya?!?!?

- cat

note by note...

2004-03-17T09:47:14Z

been spending the majority of the day mentally frustrated.

failure in attempting to stay focused and concentrate on school work is utterly inevitable when these constant reoccurring thoughts, ideas, and powerful urges to retreat into utter seclusion takes over for the purpose and hope of breaking this impenetrable writer’s block…

till then I will not be satiated with anything in my life until I FINISH WHAT I STARTED...my hands have been neglected from my piano for way too long now.

beautevil @ 2004-03-15T14:03:00

2004-03-15T22:04:57Z

LINKIN PARK CONCERT TONIGHT!!!!!
WHOOT! WHOOT!!! WHOOOOT!!!!!
SEE YA THERE THY YAH?!?!?

(practicing screaming singing)

beautevil @ 2004-03-13T04:20:00

2004-03-13T12:20:51Z

hey guys, just letting you know this is Cathleen here..I am new to this livejournal thingy and don't know who's who..so if you guys are my friends add me pleeeeassse. ^_^ thanks!!

beautevil @ 2004-03-10T14:39:00

2004-03-10T22:43:15Z

.i need a drink

hidden...

2004-03-09T07:35:56Z

***

upon this face lies a mask
behind this mask lies a face

is the face the mask?
or the mask the face?

who is the fool?
and who is being fooled?

and how is it worn, this facade of yours?
oh fooler of the fools?

she replies:
in the form of a grinning smile, the mask
is this deceiving guise she wears.

...except it's upside down.

***

madness is bliss.

2004-03-06T13:40:32Z

i'm finding my way back to sanity again...but the world on the other side of that hazy line looks more intimidating and desolate than where I am standing...lightly and cautiously i tap my toe onto the ground of that other alien world, then gingerly take it back.

i do it again.

dunno what I'm gonna do when I get there...

beautevil @ 2004-03-01T23:05:00

2004-03-02T07:05:48Z

testing...testing 123...X)